You can’t kill the past
But you can shove it down
To the nerves beyond your brain
The shanty past the town
In a patch of berries you may catch on
And fixate on the exact moment everything went wrong

I don’t know where to go from here
Isn’t it a mess
Everyone’s off at college
all i do is sit and hope for the best
Alone and isolated
Spend months without my friends
And the connections have faded
Time and time again
I can’t keep up with the wait
And sometimes I can’t look myself in the face
I can’t keep up with the weight
And sometimes I can’t look myself in the face

And suddenly a year’s gone by
And my reflection bares new eyes
I don’t know what to think or say
But I'm glad I'm not the same
And suddenly the silence stops
And I can figure out my thoughts
I don’t know what’s different today
But I'm long past yesterday

And you can dye your hair
A garish shade of orange
Or you can find yourself an attic
And lock the dusty door
In a pack of camel cigarettes
There is an oasis full of promises
You can’t make the change
Unless you do
When nobody’s bound to do it
Remember no one else is you
In a locked chamber maybe you can find
A bigger picture view on the world you left behind
But this is real life
And you aren’t bound
To the body you stake claim
With your nerve wires all unwound
In a patch of berries you may catch on
And fixate on the exact moment everything went wrong

Bless my soul
God damn
woodpecker
Red hand

I don’t know what to do with the stuff you can’t throw out
I only know how to let it collect dust on the ground

Raging rivers
Broken beds
Time capsules
Sediments

But suddenly a year’s gone by
And my reflection bares new eyes
I don’t know what to think or say
But I'm glad I'm not the same
And suddenly the silence stops
And I can figure out my thoughts
I don’t know what’s different today
But I'm long past yesterday