My eyes aren’t what they used to be
But i see you in the crowd now distantly
I used to look forward to rainy days
Burned homes in the Hudson valley

So we are making ourselves into a wall
I’m bound to be vandalized, bodies, bathroom stalls
With the dryer broken all summer long
I resort to the line because it’s all i got

My first flu shot after turning 18
I never knew I'd been living so dangerously
Gave me a sticker put it on my dresser side
Over a mantra, now out of its time

I have been brainwashed and i will be again
And that’s the hard truth, the one they put in your head
I have been lied to, I'm a mechanical dog
Off to the landfill, salvage rescue or rot

All i want is to know myself
With the guesswork done by someone else
I’ll walk softly through the forest trees
I’ll be what you want I'll be anything

I abandon this harbor and i sail far
My slim view of the river set to life on mars
The daily bus ride is starting to depress me
Like a played out three chord melody

I remember the set piece, your father’s space
Taxidermy so old just an alternate decay
In the mud of what you wanted to create
Spinning cycles of a life so commonplace

If everything’s the same I'll take what i can get
I could look around I could make new friends
But giving up on friendship is not for me
Burned homes in the Hudson valley

And I've been abandoned by the people i trust
But it won’t happen again, now i know i am loved
I can be rebuilt as a mechanical dog
Off to a new home, the past is dead and gone

All i want is to know myself
With the guesswork done by someone else
I’ll walk softly through the forest trees
I’ll be what you want I'll be anything